Inspiration

Its hard when people don't understand. Its hard when people don't know how you feel about what you love, who you love. And its especially hard if the people who don't understand is the people around you. My inspiration. My motivation. My heroes. The people I looked up to and watched them grow to their fame. One direction. Yes I understand when they call me mainstream. Its because they're too famous. But they dont know that I've looked up to them even before their first single came out. Before they even are famous. When they were also once an underground artist. But thats okay. I dont want anything from them. I dont need them to give me their autograph. I dont need to have a picture with them. What I need is, just a moment to see them, and thank them. For everything. For three years I've waited and I will wait for as long as I can. Just so I can thank you. But today, I came to a realisation that its not possible. Because if, one day, when I finally meet you guys, I'll just be another fan. I'll just appear as one of the screaming girls you see on a daily basis. It's sad, but thats the truth. The thought of getting to see you, and actually communicating with you, to say thank you to you for what you've done for me, will just remain forever as a dream. But I still hope. There is a part in me that believes that maybe, just maybe one day I can actually see you like that. Like how I imagined it to be. But that part is very, very small. Because for a girl like me, it is almost, almost impossible. Three years have passed and more years will come. I'll still be waiting. To meet my inspiration, my motivation, the people who changed my life and the people who made me look at things differently. Thank you, Niall James Horan, Liam James Payne, Harry Edward Styles, Louis William Tomlinson & Zayn Jawaad Malik. For everything
-A.